Fantasy or Obsession?

Well, I was just wondering about something. Everyone says that having fantasies is normal but is it a little bit on the obsessive side when you can make up elaborate stories about people, to the point where you look up previous dates on the calendar to see if they can coincide with your existing life?

You see, I must have a pretty vivd imagination because I have made up this elaborate fantasy or alternate existence involving Vin Diesel. Now I know that I will probably never meet him, but I think he is SO hot and I've made up a scenario where I've known him for years and he finally discovers me and falls madly in love with me and I can actually picture all this stuff happening.

This in no way means that I love my husband any less or that I am unhappy but I guess i'm a little bored and this makes me happy. I told my husband that I would jump at the opportunity to get in bed with Vin and he says that it is ok because everyone has those thoughts about celebrities. I don't know, I just didn't know if these fantasies are a little over board.

Frustration

There is no way that I could be this much of a pushover. I had to have been more aggressive in another life. Here is the deal. I've been at my current job for almost 4 years and in that time, I have not received a decent raise or a promotion. Why do I stay? I guess I am just comfortable and don't feel like really pursuing anything better. This is not so. I worked my ass off for 2 years to get my MBA this past October and I have been job hunting but so far, no luck. I keep receiving calls back from the jobs i've interviewed for and they tell me that they have found others more qualified. I'm sorry but I don't see how someone who has een an accountant for almost 8 years and now has a Master's degree, could not be qualified for a Staff Accountant position. I do everything that a supervisor does but without the title or money. I don't see how I keep missing out on these jobs. The only thing I can think of is that I am sabotaging the interview and not even realizing it. Jim tells me all the time that I need to grow some balls and get out there more. (Besides the fact that that could make him gay but ewww. LOL) I just don't understand it. I'm not whining like my sister says but I am just really frustrated. This was all brought on by a phone call I received today by an employment agency that I was using to help me on my search. The woman didn't even remember meeting with me almost 2 months ago (some impression I made on her, huh?). She told me about a bookkeeping position that she has that it turns out I don't fit. Oh well. I'll just keep on looking.

Checking this out

Well, this is my first time ever using a blog. I've heard so much about it and I thought it would be a great way for me to express my thoughts. Although I was pretty skeptical about posting personal thoughts and feelings on the internet, I must say that this is a great way for me to let it all out. Of course, within reason. lol. I guess that is all for my first post. I'll be back real soon to add more.